
Well, darn, if another birthday didn’t roll around which gives me pause to reflect. Like Steve Brown, I am an old white guy. He likes to project a crusty, semi-grumpy image, but truth be told, he a grace dispensing dude who likes to laugh and think and get other people laughing and thinking. I like that about him… and want to be like that too.
I am starting to like that I am amazed at what I don’t know, especially about things that I used to think I knew a lot about… like church and God. I am beginning to be able to rest in my great lack of knowledge.
I like that I am not like most older people I know who tend to think they have things figured out, but have come to some bogus, but convenient conclusions.
I like younger people who tend to be more raw and real.
I like that I live in age that has lots of fun electronic gadgets.
I like that I am probably a late blooming hippie who has a passionate, rebellious, anti-establishment streak and is proud of it, even tough quite a few people think I am nuts.
I like that, even though, I have been knocked around by life; I am as passionate and idealistic as ever… maybe even more so.
I like being a grandpa and love my children and their children. Being a grandparent is one of the best things ever!
I like making old man noises when I sit down or get up, especially when I get out of my wife’s Mustang. It somehow helps.
I like having a lot of white hair and a scraggy white beard (when I have a beard… usually in the winter.)
I like that occasionally someone thinks I might know something, just because I am old.
Like everybody, I have a dark side. Mine is characterized by regret, introspection, guilt, and being overly analytical. Those traits make effective devilish cocktail that induces depression and paralysis. I have so had it with that!
So, here are some guiding principles that I have been putting to work as I begin another year of life.
Let go of the past.
The past is good for confessing, forgiving, learning, and being thankful. It is not good to be dwelt on beyond that.
Attack the future.
My attacking the future is calling on a lot of faith and obedience as I move into some new areas and begin to forge a whole new direction. Yet, it is pretty cool to chase after something that is in my heart. I’ll tell you more as this new ministry/vocation/entrepreneurial thing as it comes together.
Trust
My fear, my depression, my sin all seem to find their roots in having trouble trusting God and fearing failure of some sort. He brings me to my knees, when he asks, Glenn, do you trust me?
I am an old white guy… and I like it!
P.S. I am 54 today. Dang, I am old!